this weekend i went to a seminar with my mom and my sister. its a double degree seminar, meaning it goes on for 2 weekends but takes place only on Saturday and Sunday. the thing is, i almost did not go for it. even more funnier, i only went on the first weekend because i could not find anyone to go with me to watch the KL dragon match.
i remember several strong things from this seminar that i would want to write here so that it serves as a reminder for me and insyaallah to those who reads it. the seminar is about the names of Allah. it was a beautiful experience for me and i cannot thank you Allah enough for not giving me a friend to accompany me to the match on that day.
today was the last day of the seminar and no doubt, to my own experience was the most powerful day relative to the rest. the seminar, had a fee *like any other seminars* but the syeikh did a free session from 3 to 8pm. anyone who wants to come are most welcome. because he was about to teach one of the greatest names of Allah, Al-Ghaffar, Al- Ghafur, Al- Tawwab and Al- Afu'. and because he wants to recite the doa beramai2.
i did asked a few friends of mine to come. but another thing i learnt here, an important lesson, a cure to my freaky-ness in dealing with promises. humans, have a will, a desire and basically, we want things to happen in our lives. we work for it, and Allah knows we work hard for it. but if it against Allah's will, it shall not happen. no siree. Allah knows i love these people i asked to come by because i wanted to share these ilmu. but they could not come. i was upset at first. but come to think of it, if things did not happen, they certainly did not for a reason and i trust Allah to know better why things happen like they did.
another thing that touched me during the seminar was a couple here. the wife was a beautiful woman. and the husband look slightly old but he looked calm and strong. as we finished up the 4 names of Allah i mentioned before, she stood up and spoke to the crowd. how she is going to live with these for names of Allah that bear forgiveness. and as she spoke, she said. she has did many sins in her past life. she did not wear hijab before and continues to like and wear makeup. she drives her husband crazy during her early marriage and did many things bad to her husband. but he stayed calm and did not divorce her. today, she came to realize this gift from Allah. she said that she is grateful to have met her husband, a calm steady man to be patient with her, to guide her and to protect her. mashallah. she made an oath that very moment to start repenting, to continue improving herself in front of the whole crowd. and to top things off, the husband came, and hugged her and they cried happy tears.
finally we recited the doa. the long, meaningful doa. i dont remember the details of it but im sure that if i had learnt arabic properly i would have a better understanding of the doa. the doa, moved me in many ways because of the content itself. because of the names of Allah. sometimes in life in many occasions we forget and we take things for granted. and more often, when in trouble we seek for Allah's help. coming here, learning these names, i came to realize that Allah is there for us all the time. that Allah has honored us and loved us more than his other creations. sure he gave us hurdles and heartbreaks. diseases. and such. but it is all with a purpose.
again, i am thankful. so thankful that Allah had paved a way for me, gave me a chance to learn about him, spend my time thinking of him, taught me how to love him during this seminar. i may not be as nice as i am now later. but i trust, a doa, a pure niat to become a better person will be heard by Allah.insyaallah.
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