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assalamualaikum

i have a confession to make. im not good with babies. or toddlers. or kids. i think. tp tadi akui pegi nursery usm tu and these kids were like swarming all over and what did i do? aku pegi ddk kat corner tu cm takut nk tgur budak2 comel ni semua.

oh yes budak2 ini suma comel. mata besar, gigi baru nk tumbuh. they keep falling down and giggling. ni kira kids from heaven betul. x menangis pun. kawan2 aku ddk, bersila and start making agaga-faces. suroh ddk atas peha dorg. budak2 ni suka.dorg ddk, gelak2. tah ape lagi dorg buat. tp ak perhati la.

then ada sorg budak ni dtg kt aku. dlm hati aku cm "yana. chance ni. buktikan!" then i said the stupidest thing ever. 'meh cni. npe pndg cmtu' budak tu tgk ak muka pelik. seolah2 dlm hati dy ckp "akak ni x reti kot nk lyn budak. amende tah dy cakap ni." oh aku down down down.

kena rejek kekasih lain cte. yg tu aku boleh justify lagi dr mcm2 aspek. tp kalau kena rejek dgn budak?? aiyo.. -_________-"

i dont know why but being friendly or being able to communicate with kids are a trait of loving and care. mother-like. ofcourse la lelaki suka. aih. aku tah cne tah. aku baik dgn adk2 aku semua. ak sayang dorg semua. adik last aku pun amin yg dh umur 5 thn tu. but the thing is, aku yg jaga dy dari dy kecik, baby smpi skg. kalau nk mainkn tu x brape pro la. tp kalau nk tdokn budak aku ok.

ak usaha gk nk amek hati budak2 ni. then this pretty little creature, namanya Solehah. mai kat aku. ddk2 ats aku, dy dh ngantuk. aku dukung dy, dy sndr kt bahu aku. then ak start selawat. pastu dy lentok! ah2! gembiranya aku time tu! :) tp dy x tdo.. cm lalok2 je.. byk gk org try tdokn dy but no avail.. last2 lepas aku makan, aku amek dy once again, selawat lagi.. and she fell asleep. the pure little thing.

Solehah Sayang :)

here's where i start being mushy. I want to become a mother and develop this mother-like feeling. and pregnant and look really subur and rosy. haha. amek kau. i might not look like one now. but know that deep down, aku ada rasa nk tu semua. probably more than the husband. haha. but InsyaAllah, in time. :)