Ayah

assalamualaikum, bismillah

its my last night before my midterm holls and im feeling a bit touchy after watching gumiho series. (again, 3rd time) but this time its not about the love-boyfriend stuff.

fieq bakal ddk rumah aku weekend ni and i was planning to bring her to some nice places to eat. n terbayang la ayah mst cakap

"kakyang ni baik la" he always says that.

tapi aku, selaku anak sulung yang dh jauh hati dgn bapak. (ats beberapa sebab tertentu) selalu buat keras hati dgn ayah. aku x manja dgn dia. xreti nk manja dgn dia dah. semenjak dah dewasa ni. yg aku mampu, dgar ckp dia, ikut, patuh, salam tgn dia sblum dia pg kerja, sblum ak tdo, dan meminta maaf dgn dia pd pagi raya. most of the things i do with him are these. lately ni, (bkn lately la, dh lama) dia manja dgn hanna, my younger sis.

aannd... aku teringat, when i was 18. i brought my ex home. (mse tu he was my bf. and unbelievably stupid, i was this 18 yr old teenager who just graduated frm highschool and brought home a guy for dinner, OUTSIDE the house) and the best part was, we broke up when i was 19.

but the thing is, my dad, maybe sebab dia x reti nk bergurau dgn aku dah.. dia nmpk aku gembira dgn lelaki ni, dia bagi aku bwk bf ak tu, balik rumah, ke rumah atuk dan nenek aku, bg dia mkn rumah semeja dgn keluarga aku. ayah bagi. dan dia ckp kt aku.. the only reason why he did that, was because he saw how happy i was at that time.

and i couldnt be more stupid, more blind to see how much ayah aku sygkn aku selama ni.

aku kecik hati dia lebihkan adik2 aku yg belajar ovc. tp sorg pun x buat bnde bodoh cm aku mse umur 18. mse aku ank tunggal (adk2 aku belum ada), ayah bawak aku mandi smpi tgh laut, bwk aku p bukit bendera..
ada skli tu, dia marah aku sbb xnk mandi.. aku nangis sbb dia tengking aku.. (1st time) aku peluk dia, pastu dia pun ngs sbb tgk aku ngs..

sygnye ayah kat anak sulung dia..

kakyang mintak maaf,, byk sgt, byk kali kakyg buruk sangka kt ayah..kakyg xpnh beli adiah elok2 utk ayah, xpnh tgkp gmbr berdua dgn ayah dgn ikhlas. mst muka masam. sbb kakyg x reti dh nk manja dgn  ayah mcm mse kakyg kecik dlu. kakyg mampu dga ckp ayah je.

tp islam mengajar, ayah akan menanggung doa ank prmpuan. ayah, kakyg mintak maaf sbb byk sgt buat dosa kt ayah..kakyg lupa ayah sygkn kakyg. mse kecik2 dlu. even skg.. kakyg yg jauh hati. kakyg slalu lupa.. sbb tu kakyg tulis ni. supaya kakyg igt. Allah bg ayah kt kakyg utk jaga elok2.

i love u ayah. im so sorry i always forget that u love me too.