jealousy

background song : Wedding Dress

dalam video clip ni, laki ni nk propose kat sorg pompuan yg dy dh lme suke..tup2, best friend dy yg propose right before his eyes."you should be my lady" is one of the things he sang in this song.dga la..agk terkilan la dga..jadi lagu kegilaan aku lately ni..

jealousy??

ntahla ape yang ak jealous skg ni..org kate jealous ni tandenye x bersyukur dgn ape yg aku ade..mungkinlah..aku try suppress feeling ni tapi kalau ternampak bnde2 yg bleh buat aku jealous ni..apekan daye..aku pon manusia..

1.member2 makin berpunye..lagi2 dlm USMKK ni..(agak blunt dctu sbb membe rapat aku kt cni pn x rmi) ni bukannye bermaksud aku pon nk jugakkk..actually aku agk pndg slack kt org2 yg berpunye ni..mungkin dengki..aku sdar kebusukan hati sndri..yela..kalau aku pon ade xkn aku nk busuk hati kt diri sndiri..maybe i should just look at them dgn hati yg kosong n be happy for them..and instead of being jealous of my friends, i should b happy for them..mungkin..sbb aku tau perasaannye blea de someone special.happy kot..so, if thier feeling it, as a friend, aku patut bahagia sbb dorg bahagia...aku syg kwn2 aku n aku tau if ade sesiape yg mainkan perasaan dorg, aku pn akan turut membenci org yg pndi2 mainkan perasaan kwn2 aku ni..

2.yg ni positive la snanye pon...jealous kt skill2 basket yg superior kt court tuh..fiq, aunty, fakri,abah..terror kot dorg..ble tgk mmg jaw-dropping laa..dorg mmg hebat!! so, aku pn memerhati..n try trening gk..ak mmg smgt nk trening sbb nk hebat mcm dorg.stable, cool n steady..dlm game otak bleh pk lagi..WOW!! passion utk hebat tu..especially fiq la..mmg respek.this is also one of the reasons why aku syg bsktball..it takes my mind off things. things that are irrelevant in my life right this moment..mcm hal2 psgn nih..dari aku berchenta monyet, baik aku trening jadi hebat.besides that, mcm dlm cte coach carter tu,kalau nk main bsket tu kene pandai subject gk.. seyes cte tu baguih!!!

so skg ni target aku is..

1.jadi lebih hebat dlm basketball, conquer 2nd board, jump-shot,cut in n perfectkan fake.

2.jadi best student la beb! seronok hati ble dpt pointer tnggi.rase mcm membalas jasa mak bapak! jadi..selagi aku x hbzkn note dgn semurna, aku x bleh main basketball.selagi aku x jwb CA or OSPE dgn betul, aku x bleh trening awal2.

i realized ble aku restrain or put conditions mcm ni baru aku betul2 ikot.sbb aku syg 2 bnde ni kat cni.apart from my friends la.mcm basketball n studies, sume ni x bleh naik sorg2.nk hebat sorg2 senang.tapi kalau nk hebatkan 1 team lagi susah kn?tapi ble hebat 1 team tu rase manisnye game,ble hebat satu batch, satu kelas rase manisnye belajar..

lately ni byk yg stress blaja..sabar kawan2..end of semester mmg cmtuh..same2 kte blaja okey?tapi blaja tu jgn lupe jage dri sndri..makan, exercise..sume tuh penting! kalau x otak x cergas nk study..yg study smpi lewat mlm tu study la..allah tau usehe kite..tapi jgn smpi menindas badan sndri..allah bagi ktea badan, otak..suroh jage elok2..so, jgn pakse diri sgt..sygkn diri sndri dulu..

puas aku tulis post kali ni..its like a reminder to myself..sometimes, i overlook things n kdg2 aku lupe n aku kecohkan hal yg kecik2.. jadik...kamu (saye) igtlah ape yg priority and dont fret the small stuff. everything will fall into place.:)

~peace no war~