Perempuan Kasar

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.

I'll be blunt and honest like I always have. And I do not have any intention of hurting or offending anyone's feelings. And I would like to state here, it is a personal statement of what I think me and some of my friends feel about ourselves and what other people see us as.

Women in Sports
We are naturally tough, we don't mind sunburns, we like working out and a good game. We like to bathe in rivers and by the beach. We drive like a pro and we're not afraid to do so alone. We are independent and usually, (just so happens to be) most of us are the first-born of the family. We are protective and we tend to be bitchy and 'kasar'.

Physically, we usually look a tad less nicer than our sisters and friends (bruises, over-used knees, injured ankles, sunburns and such). Physically we dress to comfort. Your basic jeans and t-shirt. Physically we don't like to overdress and put much effort into out looks. Physically we choose flip-flops over high heels and T-shirts over dresses.

We, (me and some of my friends here) are family-oriented. We, put our needs aside and listen to what our families require of us. We, have less 'want' and we tailor ourselves to cater to what our family needs and expectations. Some of us are pressured by this, some of us are not. But whatever the case may be, we strive to be the best for our families. This shows in our line of work, usually. Most of us wants to do this and that, like becoming a writer or a police, or a piano teacher or something else. But, since we are strong and capable enough to throw that away for our loved ones, we do so. Because our fathers raised us and we know that he is already responsible for all our sins until puberty, so, the least we can do is give him this; what he expects us to be.

We portray ourselves as if we don't care, we talk harsh and loud. But some of us enjoy simple 'domestic-femalism' things in life like sewing or cooking or reading a book or playing the piano or writing poems. Some of us keep that to ourselves because we're afraid that the world might make fun of us if they know about it. Some of us actually like the color pink. Some of us go crazy over cute kittens. Some of us dream of being adored and loved just like other girls. But we're afraid to show it.

We're just normal human beings with real hearts but people tend to forget because of how we show ourselves to the world. People tend to think of us as strong, so, they think we don't really need anyone to protect or respect our feelings. People forget to ask us what we really want or feel. People overlook us for our tough portrait, our flip-flops and our ball-game. And sometimes, when we get to the breaking point, even that gets misunderstood too. Just because we ain't pretty and soft and girly, we don't get the attention or affection that we are too shy to ask for and deeply want.

Its pathetic to put this on paper. Even more so if I ask the world to read this. But people (everyone) are more than what they seem and it's just sad that me, and my friends gets all these stereotype judgement from almost everyone. It hurts and I wish we could do something about it. Sure we can change ourselves, give up our game for skirts and makeup but we're not like that. We're comfortable the way we are and I just wished everyone would give more credit to us for staying true to ourselves even though it hurts sometimes.

But then again, apelah sangat pandangan dari mata manusia dari mata Allah.

*pure rant*