fedup

salam

this might be the most Inappropriate time to write something.

aku baru balik dari basketball. dari riadha la sebenarnya. before that i went for aerobics to join my friends. girlfriends. had lots of fun. dah lama x rasa cmtu. sbb before ni ak selalu main basketball dgn fieq dgn anty yang lain semua lelaki.

now fieq pergi perlis. and next year she'll graduate. along with some other friends of mine. anty busy. and there's nothing i can do about it. she's fabulous u see. illustrator+master forensics genetics+basketball anty. and she's juggling all of that at the same time.

petang tadi aku pergi court. selalunya ada la samah ke, pok yam ke nik ke.. but that evening no one's there. abah ada la. tapi dy dok shoot2. lg pn segan nk pergi menepek kat dia. kalau fieq ada takpa la. aku pun anak pungut bwh jambatan je. fieq ank pmpn kandung tak pa la. bleh tumpang kasih dgn ank kandung. haha~

while this may seem too personal, i dont really care anymore because i know im bound to delete this when im sober. so anyways, ptg td tkde orang yg tmn ak kt court. banyak orang luar je. court tu student punya. USMKK punya. mine. so i stood there and dribbled amongst the many men. most of them ak kenal. tapi yg lain mmg x pndg pmpn. bdn mcm shohoku players semua. semua jenis tgk pmpn yg main bsktball mcm ayam.

ak takda la hebat mana. tp sbb tu ak training. and honestly, aku dah FEDUP dgn pengurusan sukan sini, attitude budak2 sini yang janji kata nk turun court tapi tak turun2. yang kononnya nak pasang rim tapi tak pasang2. and for the past two years ive been trying to build this team. REbuild the bball female team. but failed. maybe aku yang kurang. ye Allah bagi ujian. and maybe there's a reason why no one wants to play. ya, aku patut bersabar. tapi hati aku pun lemah. and i breakdown sometimes.

im breaking down. and im giving up on this team. and its final. sebab lepas ni aku nak training untuk MASUM. and im doing this, this once, for myself. fieq dgn anty trun main dgn aku. and im thankful that i have them while they're still here. and for those who look at me and say

"budak ni fanatik sangat basketball"

or "tak malu ddk tgh2 court penuh laki"

or "ddk court bkn reti main. nak menggedik je"

think what you want. cuz im tired of putting up with crap from people. and i want this badly. this MASUM thingy. anyone care to join me are most welcome. those who condemned, criticized, do whatever you want. its your life i for one, dont give a damn about it.