jantung screamo

assalamualaikum

i have a question here and im hoping those who read it can answer

kenapa perlu msg2 or call bila suka someone?

why cant we just like someone unconditionally, and just be in touch with them occasionally?

aku suka someone tapi aku kena call, msg, jumpa org tu slalu.???
back then this wouldnt have made sense to me.

sbb fitrah manusia nak jumpa org yg dy suka. nk manja2. nk spend time samew2.

aku pon jealous la tgk kwn2 ak kt cni dating.

dating sampai ke court.

balik sama2. pg kelas sama2. ALL the time jumpa.

uuii. bestnyew!
nanti jumpa time kawen lagi and spend your next 50 yrs menghadap muka org yg samew lagi.

ni x sebut lagi org2 yg sambut2 anniversary 6,7,8,9 tahun as a couple lg.

x sebut lagi org2 yg tgkp gmbr sme2.kt pelamin la tgh vacation la.

uuuii. best2.

aku jealous jugak weyh.

aku pun naaak jugak.

tapi dalam nak nak aku tu, ABAH aku ajar,

kan senang kalau kawen terus??

ko nk jumpa sesuka hati jumpa la.

nk buat ape buat la.

sambut 30 decades of marriage dgn buat kenduri buat la.

hoi. aku nak jugak la semua bnde alah tu.

smbut anniversary, candlelight dinner, main basket same2, ddk ats pkwe mse dy tgh buat sit up.. semua tulah!! menarik!!!

TAPI.. setahu aku.. agama aku tak ajar aku buat semua tuh.

SETAHU aku..jodoh tu dlm tgn tuhan and

while the usage of JODOH is overrated

that some people think that jodoh tu perlu usaha..kena tackle org tu!

kena kenal dlu!

harus2!!

BAGI aku... DOA tu pun usaha bhai.

USAHA menjauhkan diri tu USAHA la.

USAHA menahan rindu pun usaha. ko ingat senang??

uui. org yg aku suka tu dhla hensem, caring, suwit gtu. igt senang aku nk lupa??
tambah2 lagi dy pun suka aku..AAISH! lagi godaan!!

susah ni susah. cmne eh?

i might sound weird to some of u

but this makes sense to me.

loving someone doesnt mean u have to be affectionate all the time.

doesnt mean being mean means not caring about them.

doesnt promise security for them.

feeling insecure is when u DONT trust Allah.

hah. sonang la aku cakap.

aritu teringat2 org sampai sakit jantung.

tapi aku doa dan doa dan doa sebab aku percaya and aku NAK percaya and aku TGH usaha

untuk LETAKKN cinta aku, attention aku, affection aku untuk ALLAH dulu.

but this, my friends is easier said then done.

so tell me if im wrong.

tell me if i need to change.

if i need to be one of those people who im jealous of but dont want to be.

tell me.. if what i think, what i stand for, right now, is wrong.

sebab aku ni budak kecik umur 7 tahun dan aku tak tahu apa2 tentang cintan cintun dewa dewi remaja.