Old Love

Dear 2008,

You were the best thing that ever happened to me. You were nice, brave and incredibly sweet. We were friends although you said you had more for me. You were one of the best guy I had ever known.

Dear 2009,

We remained friends, I had another boyfriend, maybe I was a bitch. I don't know why I was one too. I was young and stupid and in love. We drifted apart.

Dear 2010,

I don't know where you are, and maybe vice versa. But we found out our wherabouts. I'm here, you're there and frankly, I forgot what happened in between.

Dear 2011,

You got together with one of my close friends. It felt weird and awkward She tried to hid it from me, You tried to hide it from me, I had another new boyfriend, now its official that we were all young and stupid. But it felt real then.

Dear 2012,

THE glitch happened. Maybe I had feelings for you. So, I cheated on my boyfriend in my brain. And you wanted a break from your girl, whom told me everything about you 24/7. And you told me u had feelings for me. And I dont know why we are not together but I wanted so. We broke up with both our partners but we're still not together. There were some stupid and meaningless texts and flirts that got us nowhere. And I did countless of stupid stuff that I don't want to remember. But I guess it was this year I realized I had feelings for you.

Dear 2013,

You hurt me. BIG TIME. With your stupid texts and words. And I cannot forget that. But I forgave you anyway. For old times sake. And there were some many more other times you said little stuff that hurt me. and maybe I did too but I didn't know what I meant to you. We remained friends with an awkward past. I don't know if you have a girlfriend now. I unfollowed you on your FB, you Twitter because I have feelings for you and every time you flirt with some other girl, I get jealous. Heck, every time I see your something2 online I get restless. It's like just please get out of my life, and head and heart. And you have friends that urges me to get a guy because its weird I don't have a boyfriend and you're in my face and I can't do anything about it cuz its so weird.

Its like, I like you, and u used to like me and we hurt each other countless of times, and we don't even know what to talk about around each other, and we keep on getting in touch with each other over time, and I don't know if its jodoh because Oh My God you just get onto my nerves sometimes. And I can't see why God installed this feelings I have for you now. It's irritating that I like you. Some people call this infatuation but, for me, I don't understand why it lasted for 5 freaking years. I'd really like for you to read this or at least know of this. But every time I ask someone to read my blog the whole situation just gets worse.

I really wished you would get a girlfriend so I can be alone and stop wishing for you. Its either that or us together because we never tried that before and I wonder so much what could have been if it did.